Saturday, February 11, 2017

Releasing The Need For Fast weight loss results

        Releasing The Need For Fast Results.

  The one thing I battle when I get back on the weight loss journey is wanting to see fast results. I have a desire to see the highest about of weight loss ever. I began to feel myself not enjoying the journey and wanting it to be over. I battle with this every time I start my journey. This is probably the main reason why I crash and burn when I am working on my weigh loss. I have to tell myself that slow and easy does it. I have to understand that this is a process and one journey that I am not going to be able to just breeze through because this is a lesson for me. I have to take this journey one day at a time and understand that the race is not given to the swift but to the one that endures to the end. I will day by day complete this journey. When I began to feel like I want to take this process to an extreme I will call on my spiritual helpers for guidance on this journey. During this full moon I will release the need to make this be extreme with my weight loss. I will be gentle with myself and love myself to my best capacity. I will implement self mastery but I will not be hard on myself. I will focus daily goals of staying on task.

Wednesday, February 8, 2017

Finding balance with Carbohydrates

Finding Balance with Carbohydrates

 I love me some carbs. I love my pastas, fresher baked breads with butter, banana but bread, Mashed potatoes, potato salad, you name it I love it. I really love them during that certain womanly time of the month because it is so filling. After so many times on the journey I am understanding that I am an emotional eater. Its all about feelings with me. I have learned more now than I knew then about eating better and one thing is for certain. As a emotional pisces, and just being a woman if I determined my eating carbs from my emotional feelings I would be out of control with my blood sugar and all. So with that thinking I have to change that lol.

  On my spiritual journey now I am learning to change my thinking to being more positive so I can feel better. On my weight loss journeying in the past I was at a place where my I thought that I had to allow my emotions to control my life. I understand now that my emotions (E=Energy+Motions= Enery in motion) are all based on how what I think and those feelings are sent out into the universe to attract like frequency. I've learned that I have the ability to change my emotions by immediately understanding that I don't feel well, and giving myself a mantra or affirmation to alter my thinking. This does work. What I use to do was think feel my feeling and understand that I don't feel good and then stay there, attracting like frequency. I would own my feelings and would use food for comfort. So carbohydrates produce serotonin a feel good chemical in the brain and when I felt bad I would eat carbs to feel better. Most of the times I was feeling bad because I didn't have good feelings about myself to begin. Low self esteem sucks. If you don't love yourself you will be unhappy. Back then I had bad feelings about my weight, look, personality and all. Then with the belief of being an emotional eater I was validating all of the horrible thoughts about myself. So now I use my thoughts to produce good feelings and I don't have to use carbs to produce the feel good feeling because I understand that feeling are temporary and can change by what you think.

    I have tried all types of diets from low carbs, to eating carbs and I have learned that carbs need a balance. I do eat carbs but I get them through veggies now versus processed foods. If I do eat a food high in carbs I save then for one meal. I save it and it can't be the majority of the meal. Most of my foods are proteins (Meats, nuts) Fruits and veggies all day long but I choose one of my major meals to have a small portion of a good high in carbs. Some people would like tell me not to eat them at all but I feel that balance is the key. I allow myself one portion a day. Today I had it for breakfast and that will be the only time I eat it today. The rest of my meals will be protein, fruits, and veggies. Low carb does produce wonderful results. I do allow myself all good groups in moderations. Not all day but once a day.

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

Slow and steady

Slow & Steady

  I started my first weight loss journey at the age of 9. That is very early in life. I don't understand how I am still at it at 32. I started playing my first sport at 5 years old. I started playing basketball. So fitness became a concern very early in my life. So when I really think about it I can see that I created habits at a very young age of weight loss. The one thing I have learned is slow and steady is the key. Fast weight loss results in fast weight gain.

   I have maintained my weight loss a long time with out making it a priority. So I have began to make it a priority again. I started off just getting back to working out without changing my diet at first. Im am the type of person that is all or nothing. I don't do anything half way. There was a time where I would restrict myself so much that I was only getting the smallest amount of calories possible and would wonder why I crashed and burned so fast. I learned through much prayer and spiritual work that my behaviors showed that I did not love myself at all. My strategy was to make myself suffer for all of the weight I gained. In my mind I was such a glutton and didn't deserve to be treated nicely. I remember one time that I ate half a pack a noodles a day and water to lose weight. Yes you did read that right. So many extremes. Could you imagine how unhappy I was on the inside? After years of being on this journey o have learned that being easy and loving to yourself is the key to success.

   Through all of my experiences of getting it wrong I learned what not to do. I look at myself in the mirror today to appreciate myself on a whole other level. Today I know that loving yourself through every journey is the key for success. You can't believe that you are a horrible person for your weight and then expect your body to perform magic. Believing that you are amazingly awesome makes you feel amazingly awesome and I believe you will attract amazing result. Slow and steady is the key. Being extreme causes psychological problems. Love yourself for not giving up no matter how many times you have to start over. I claim that I am the master of weight loss because through all of my times on this journey I understand what it truly takes to make this work. I love me for never giving up on me.

Thursday, December 13, 2012

6 Month 6 Pack Challenge


                                        6 Month 6 Pack Challenge

                 Once you start a journey you have to keep moving forward to head to the completion.


     I just want to start of saying that I have been on this journey on and off a long time and have lost about 60 pounds and have kept it off. I have 60 more pounds that I want to lose and it has been hard trying to get back in the right mindset to complete this journey. When you have been as large as I was or larger It is hard to look at the whole journey in its entirety. If you do that you will get very discouraged and want to give up completely. So I feel like this new journey I am on is only pt. 2 of my weight loss journey. I am going to put my weight loss journey in three parts so I don't get overwhelmed. Losing weight is an extreme battle not just because you have to diet and exercise but when you are fighting obesity there are other reasons why you have gained the weight. No one just eats and gains 100 pounds in 2 years without something being wrong. I gained weight like that before and it has been a journey to take off the weight. I remember from 2003 until 2010 I had gained 161 pounds and I couldn’t believe it. How does a person gain that much and not realize it? I got an answer for you that may not blow your mind and it’s called depression. Depression and eating to control my feelings had caused me to isolate myself and eat myself into frenzy.

      In 2010 I began to gain my life back by attempting to lose all of this weight. I remember attempting walking around the block and not being able make it half way around the block. Just years prior to this weight gain I was very athletic and jogging. It took me from 2003 to 2010 become the heaviest I had ever been and being totally unhappy. In 2010 I became very dedicated to walking every day and trying to eat right. My eating right consisted of 6 small meals a day. At my largest weight and trying to attempt to lose weight didn’t make me feel good about myself because all I could think about was how did I allow myself to get that heavy? I would get on the scale and get angry because I was so mad at myself. I would just cry and want to give up but I was determined to lose this weight. I started seeing results very fast, but the problem was that I still didn’t know how to control my emotions so when I got angry, upset, happy, or nervous I ate and ate until I could eat anymore. That’s a pattern with me.

    Now in 2012 I have become a little lazy because I have lost 60 pounds and I started to forget how fast the weight could come back on. I looked on the scale and I had gained 7 pounds because it is around the holidays and I decided to gorge myself. I looked at myself in the mirror and realized that I had to get back on this journey because I have to finish what I started. Exercise alone will not help you to lose the weight. 70 percent of weight loss is diet alone and 30 percent is exercise. I was still doing my exercises which I do Zumba Fitness but now in December 2012 I am ready to start what I finished and I am ready to tackle pt. 2 of this journey. So I have put myself on a 6 Pound 6 pack Challenge where I will complete this pt. 2 of my weight loss journey so I can this weight loss process almost finished. I am just eating 6 small meals a day and staying away from simple carbs. I will be drinking half of my body weight in water and staying away from sugar too. Eating small portions and working out 6 days a week will be my goal. I am allowing myself one can of coke zero a day so I don’t feel deprived!!!! High protein meals and very low carbs will be my goal. I will keep you updated.

Thursday, November 15, 2012

I'm not finished yet!!!!

 I have been dealing with a serious battle with being consistent and staying on top of blogging. I have still been working out and losing but I have been stuck in the writing part...I am back writing so please check this blog site daily for new blogs...Love you guys!!!! Here are some pics!!!!


Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Day 84:I have increased my exercise!!!!

  I have dramatically increased my exercise for the 90 days. I am going to workout 5 to 6 days a week for the next 90 days in order to challenge myself. I am also going to watch my portion control. I think it is time to make sure that I push myself i order to make myself better than before physically. We should always be taking ourselves to the next level and that is what I plan on doing. I want to see more results and I want to improve my fitness level so that I can do more than I ever have before. Here are some other things I am going to do in the next 90 days. My source of exercise is zumba fitness.

What is zumba fitness?
Zumba Fitness® is the only Latin-inspired dance-fitness program that blends red-hot international music, created by Grammy Award-winning producers, and contagious steps to form a "fitness-party" that is downright addictive.
Since its inception in 2001, the Zumba program has grown to become the world's largest – and most successful – dance-fitness program with more than 12 million people of all shapes, sizes and ages taking weekly Zumba classes in over 110,000 locations across more than 125 countries.

This is what my diet will now consist of for the next 90 days.
1. Portion Control.  The best way to make sure you have the correct portion is by measuring but sometimes that is not possible so here is some other ways
Use your hand to Estimate
Fist = 1 cup or 1 medium whole fruit
Thumb(tip to base) = 1 ounce of meat or cheese
Thumb tip(tip to 1st joint) = 1 tablespoon
Fingertip(tip to 1st joint) = 1 teaspoon
Index finger(1st to 2nd joint) = 1 inch
Cupped hand = 1-2 ounces of nuts or pretzels
Palm(minus fingers)= 3 ounces of cooked meat, fish,    or poultry
Use the Plate method
Divide your plate into quarters.  Fill 1/4 with a grain based side dish, 1/4 with a protein source and the remaining 1/2 with 0-1 Point vegetables and/or fruit
2.  5 servings of Fruits and Vegetables:  For leafy vegetables like lettuce and spinach one serving is 1 cup; for all other fruits and vegetables 1/2 cup is a serving.
3.  2 or 3 servings of Milk and or Milk products.
4.Make sure you get enough protein.  Have one to two servings of protein besides your milk servings
I believe that the way you eat truly determines the outcome of your weight loss so I want to modify my eating habits to make sure I am doing this diet thing correct.
I am also going to pray and meditate more in order to clear my mind of all negativity. I know that when I am stressed out or hurt I usually want to eat. Before I go to the kitchen and fill my stomach of food when I am not hungry I will began to pray and meditate.
Here is a poem that I found online and It has really helped me put this weight loss thing into some type of perspective.
Only One Pound
Hello, do you know me?
If you don't, you should. I'm a pound of fat,
And I'm the HAPPIEST pound of fat that you would ever want to meet.
Want to know why?
It's because no one ever wants to lose me;
I'm ONLY ONE POUND, just a pound!
Everyone wants to lose three pounds, five pounds, or fifteen pounds, but never only one.
So I just stick around and happily keep you fat.
Then I add to myself, ever so slyly, so that you never seem to notice it.
That is, until I've grown to ten, twenty, thirty or even more pounds in weight.
Yes, it's fun being ONLY ONE POUND OF FAT, left to do as I please.
So, when you weigh in, keep right on saying, "Oh, I only lost one pound."
For you see, if you do this, you'll encourage others to keep me around because they'll think I'm not worth losing.
And, I love being around you - your arms, your legs, your chin, your hips and every part of you.
Happy Days!!!
After all, I'm ONLY ONE POUND OF FAT!!!
- Author Unknown

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Day 79: Lord please strengthen me for this Journey...My help comes from my awesome heavenly Creator

This blog is just a prayer to my heavenly Creator. I need some serious strength on this journey. I know my strength to fight this battle of obesity can only come from God so I totally look to him!! I hope this encourages you to know that in our weakness God’s strength is made perfect!!!

  Almighty loving creator I thank you for another day!!! You are so majestic and so wonderful and I praise you just for who you are. I thank you for allowing me to live this life and the opportunity to get to know you. I know that you didn't create me to have issues with obesity. I know you created me to be healthy and strong so that I can fulfill my purpose in the earth. So I want to apologize and repent for risking my life and allowing food to master me. I have had issues with food my whole life, and have been looking for pleasure and comfort through food and as a result of me doing this I have become extremely overweight putting me at risk for obesity related diseases. Lord instead of coming to you with my problems I would go to food which is the reason why I am in this situation to begin with. So God please forgive me for my gluttony. God I know that you can get the glory out of anything Lord for your word says
  "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28 Holy Bible)"
 So God please heal my heart and mind and strengthen me to lose this weight. God I ask of you to use me Lord as an example to others that that you can heal all iniquities and diseases including my emotional eating disorder for your word says God. I would like to be a vessel used to help others including myself become free from this horrible disease.

   "Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits:
Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases;Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies; (Psalms 103:3-4 Holy Bible.)

  I know that their are so many who are battling obesity all over the world who have tried again and again to lose weight only to fail. I know what this feels like God because I have tried so many times only to fail until now. So God allow my words to encourage, exhort and comfort many who feel like they are on their last leg on there weight loss journey. God I am so thankful for your forgiveness, sufficient grace and loving kindness towards me. In the midst of me not taking care of myself I could have become extremely ill or died because of some obesity related illness but God you kept me in alive and well. Lord I need during this journey so bad. God I can't do this without you. Lord strengthen my determination, willpower, drive and ability not to give up so I can be effective in the earth. Heal my mind, will and emotions on this journey and allow me to stay focused on you at all times and the vision at hand so that I won't see the obstacles but the victory. Renew my mind Lord so that I can present my body as a living sacrifice to you!!! I love you God....Amen